THE AH HA MOTHER OF A MOMENT

So I recently saw a friend of mine Greg. I've known Greg for over three years. We act like kids around each other. It's extremely annoying to people around us. We don't care. I see him we hug and then just as we are about to get silly he stops...pushes me back and says "What's going on? Something's different....OH MY GOD YOUR IN LOVE! I can see it...look at you?! It's all coming from the inside..." 

I was slack jawed and stunned because in love is the furthest thing..In fact I try to run from that these days..but then as I was examining that a thought came to me and I said "Maybe I just learned to love myself and I'm in love with me.." Then I sauntered off in quiet awe of myself. 

Look it's a struggle everyday to deal with my self loathing...but for the first time in my entire life I'm truly ok w me...maybe that's the real key to life...the place where we find true happiness....when we are able to fall compassionately in love with ourselves....